Friday, June 17, 2011

Cold

I don't understand this game that you are playing. For one moment, I feel like I have you but then the next moment.....you're gone.


this feeling sucks.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

this uncomfortable feeling


I hated it when I am stuck in a situation where I have to choose between family and close friends. As much as i wanted to be fair to everyone, I just can't. My family is my priority and I'd always go for them first above everything.

Truthfully, I find it difficult to deal with the other party without making them feeling frustrated or mad at me for not being able to choose them over my family. I know they understand my situation, but can't help from being disappointed. I feel the same way too if I were at their place.

I am sorry.

This doesn't make sense but IF my freaking body can be divided into two or more, I'm more than happy to do that so I can be fair to everyone. Seriously.

Disappointing someone close to me is the last thing I ever want to do.

I want to be fair to everyone, but I just can't.

And when it comes to pujuk orang, I have to raise the white flag as high as I can because I suck at this.

My words won't do the justice instead hurting them people more.









I suck at everything I guess.

Wednesday, June 08, 2011

definitely, maybe.

I'd like to announce that




















I am still jobless.

Hahaha. And will remain jobless until....I don't know when. -__-"
Cubaan mencari kerja kena tangguh dulu as Mammamia ajak pergi holiday lah pulak. Free of charge, siapa tak nak kan? Hihi. So yeah, going to Peneng tomorrow! Nasi kandar nasi kandar nomnomnom


A has been away for almost a week now. Missing her a lot, sebab nak update hidup pun macam tak ada orang nak dengar. No offense S! Kau busy kerja, aku tak nak merengek benda2 leceh kat kau nanti kau pun bosan.


And I miss N. a lot.


Last night N told me that he's coming back this weekend! Aku dah senyum2 acah dia nak ajak jumpa lepak ke...


Sekali rupanya dia nak cakap dia nak pergi terengganu dengan family. -__-"


Celaka. Hahahaha.


Tengah pasrah sekarang ni. Tapi tak menonggeng sangat lah sebab aku pun nak pergi Peneng esok. Hihihi ok bye have a good weekend everyone!

Thursday, June 02, 2011

One last shot

Ze bestie, A dah berangkat untuk menjalankan ibadah umrah this morning, and I am disappointed with myself for not being able to send her off. It's been a week or so since I last met her. Only God knows how much I miss spending time with her. And I haven't heard a single news from her since she departed, I just hope everything goes well, InsyaAllah.


Can't wait for her to come back.


Things weren't all that good lately. Results was out last week, and as expected, I failed a subject. But shockingly, I never thought that I'd failed TAX370, because I've always thought I couldn't go through MAF330.


And just recently, I had to go back to Segamat to take the sub paper. Kinda short notice, HEA called me on Sunday at 1300hrs and told me my exam will be on Tues, at 0900hrs. So jyeah. Rushed back to Segamat and I had only one freaking day to study.


I can only pray and hope that this time, i'll pass and graduate my diploma on time. Ok sebenarnya tak on time sangat lah kan. But. Hmmm tak apalah enough on result.


Now ni, nak cari kerja! Tak larat dah nak melepet kat rumah hari2. Duit pun asyik keluar je takda nak masuk. Pasrah.


Dah cukup lah kot update k bye